OWNER OF THIS BLOG : Ms. SREEJA.S.NAIR , PGDM(FINANCE) , BIMTECH

obsessed..........

humans...... say abt normalality...if it ever exists...... it wudnt have been like wot humans are...
they are the beings who are obsessed wid... evrythn on earth... wich is near thm .. they are feeling .. bt.. they are greedy... they alvz want more....
so, wot are they generally obsessed of :
food : see the obeese, think about those who are deprived.... not getting evn a meal a day or two.... few stay for days and days
money :see the richest , think about...... who are penniless... evn a penny earned by thm brings the most awaited smile on their faces.
jobs : see those who are always flooded with it, think about those who are running aftr it.. and are ready to compromise...
love : lover.. who is obessed about his/ her partner.. think abt those...hu r unlucky tht they cudnt fulfill what they cud..
clothes : v all.... running aftr decent dressing,our self aesthetics , n crazy about brands n keen to wear costly brands... i should luk d best.. i shud b praised off in the college for my aesthetic sense...... i should luk COOL .... hunk or babe... is d evry yungster thinking off.....rite?? bt stil give a thought to the street children who sleep under the bridges under construction in cities like delhi , who hv nothn 2 cover thmselves to protect thmselves from the harsh winters , those who sleep on footpaths...
sm mst b thinking.. dat what can v do abt it?? wearing bad clothes wont suffice this pblm.. rite?? bt a thought of the day.. a minute from the hours u spend on urself wud do.... bt ya...
list goes on......
so thing is.. obsession is endless........ n deprieved..... knows the imporatnce of the thing of which he is deprieved........

from rose to a dry leaf.......

it pains , it cried , a budding rose , had so much to explore in this new world.... but the world was too cruel that it became difficuilt for the rose to survive..... it cried n cried .. dried n dried..... n still it dont want to be a become a dried leaf n die out... it want to really live life.....
like a phoenix from the ashes...... it wants to regain its birth........ as a rose.......
its still waiting...... for that drop of rain.... wich would give her that pursuit of hapiness.....
wich........ she still hopes that if her "god's there" then these dry winters which became harsh to her.....
will soon be drenched...... with smell of wet sand of first drop of monsoon.......
she thought it to be romantic as winters are a season for love.... bt she was ditched by her surroundings.....
she thought ..... many many times.... that she was nvr made to be born here....
its her that is at rong place..... bt she felt .... wasnt it an escape route....
she turned back..... n lukd back ..... n consoled her...... that she can evn withstan here..... she can do it in any alien place...... she is a rose..... a rose ...... wich not only had soft petals but she also has defensive thorns....

the rose is also standing as a leaf... coz she knows..... sm people really care for her.... and she wants to live for them and give them that fresh fragnance wich she used to give thm... n she knows...... one day will come.... n she will be back with a "VALUE - ADDED" aroma....
she'll b the most b'ful part of those....
she has absorbed her tears now....
n is trying to see they rainbow......
waiting....
till d sky turns dark blue..... n pours the magic fluid.....
wich give her birth back as a full fledged rose..
spreading fragannce of happiness all over
she knows evry worst moment will surpass soon...
evrythn has a beginning and an end.....
:)

rock baby rock...

once upon a time... don worry people.. am not reciting a story...
just saying that.. i beleived "rock music" to be like some coloured hair people beating drums n trying to break the strings of guitar...trying to break their necks n stage of performance with their feet... trying to pretend as if they belong to the next world..... wierdo creatures..... causing pain to themselves n normal people too...... wait.. dis is wat i beleived in..
but all my convictions were shaken ... when i listened carefully what actaully rock........ meant... and how is it different and so touching... it really is...... they are the people who actually take you to the world which we ignore... yeah.. thats the world we live in... they are real humans.. who feel actually... the pleasure and the pain....
rock is a message...... try n listen.....
i confess..... its not me who wanted to listen to rock....... its some special people coz of whom....... i realized...... this fact....

:)

moments..

i cherish the moments i had in past , but i still wander to capture new moments but my search has proven empty for past two years, but still something is filled into the sack of life also.... cant neglect those... can say moments....... donow happy or sad... just moments... it seems to be emotionless...... but it is....
just checking through the albums of people... i realize they have captured more moments and are collecting those each and every day.... feels like i was dazzled , cudnt see what was happpening around me .. and at that time people were collecting moments and somehow i missed the pace... but smday i'l regain the double pace... n collect double of them who left me behind... not aspiring but that special thing will touch me soon.......
:)

cracked my fear........ group discussions.......

oh... so i am entering now to the first stage of preparatin for my final placments n dat is..... GD's...... i hate them like hell.... but i hv no other way to crack it so that i can reach the nucleus.... i.e. centre of the cell called JOBS.........
had a GD session 2day...... 2 sweet ladies 4m prestigious instis.. had cm... conducted smthn called softskills class....... n they named it as their combined venture called knowledge pros..... as evry odr person says..... they also said the answer lies in oursleves......... i tried baba...... kahan dhoondoo......
GD An elimination proceess..... sucks!!!!
everyone knows their weakness n strength by dis age....... but no one tell how to improve........ lets c... wot these ladies r gonna do......
tell us a path... or jsut beating around the same dried bush...... ab to mitti me mil jayega... bush bhi.......
kuch karoo
:)

too much 2 do......

donow wot to do....... muvie season is going on...... sleeping n watching helluva muvies...... wid no gr8 thoughts....... jsut for time pass....... n jsut trying to fix... myself to one of the characters in every muvie.....sounds ridiculous...... but evry gal does so.... donow abt boyz... they r still more factual... i tink so...
learning from them..... :)

name sake...

wots behind a name......??
does name reflect something??
may b or may not b... to persons it doesnt reflect..... if parents hv given it.... may b d name given by frens reflect much more of the person's character or behaviour... hv seen..... wid my dear frens.... hu wre called.... tharki , malli ,dee....paaak..... soorma bhopaali... etc etc...
evry name had sm funny trait behind it...
bt..as v grow... no one cares... people know us by our ability..... not by... our name..... so serious......
aare chadd pare...
live life as if v have left wid one day to enjoy n d next day v dont knw..wot will happen.......
"name" is just an identification.....our duty to carry on wid it...
so jst chill chill jst chill....

fear of change... resistance

yeah everyone knows what resistance mean... jsut thinking about future..... it makes me feel tensed... but.. suddenly i turned back and luked upon hu was i and hu am i now ?? asking the question to myself made me in a situation of a thre dimensional world where i am at a position called STILL... i was a person who lived in present enjoyed my life to the fullest... never gave a damn to wotevr happened in d periphery.. never care whot people do... conspiracies never happened to cross my ear drums.... trusted frenships more than ny relationship aftr my parents...... nvr thot of how people can br ruthless n i wud b evr effected by it..... i was enuf for myself...... but things changed...... not only for me..... it changes for evry1 one at the this stage... v r grown up youths... out of that flowery world...... evrything turned to b a rocky terrain in the actual existing world.... either that it waiting for me to enter and disinterestedly i have to enter... oh god!!!
sometimes i thot y only me?? but painful but true to very1...
so no point in resisting ..... factual life... am coming .... very soon...... bas placement ho jaye......

networking.....

Just back 2 my rum...... feel so relaxed... i used to curse the location n everthing of my rum.... bt i missed my rum wen i had 2 giv it 2 sm1 else.... bt besides that i had a nice time with my friends out here in my institute..the event was ALUMINI MEET called MILAAP of our institute.... last time i didnt stay back intentionally coz i really hated my institute.... bt things have changed for me... as in IITTM , my grads insti... i want to enjoy evry moment here .... for d days left out... bt waiting for placemnts to happen soon.... its d most uneasy time.... you are free of formal studies bt still wot to do... how to do ... ???
so bak to the aluimini meet..... last two days were a bit away from usual schedules.... my rum was sacked by my seniors.....
bt thru my fren i met our old alumnus... he talked something very relevant dat striked me..... n our insti never stressed upon..... they actually didnt made us realize the true meaning of organizing an alumini meet... how much is networking imporatnt to us who live 25 - 30 kms away from th city.... they blocked our networking sites..... they cancelled our BT acumen quiz visit to IIFT.... n just for the sake to hold as many students they can...made it a jail ...... no freedom.... n they expect us to stay back on our own........
i thot i wz d only one hu dislikes dis place...... bt my oder frens also feel being trapped in dis jungle...... even our seniors felt so.... evryone is waiting for placemnts to begin n just run away......
bt business is all about networking and coordination.... one man can do nothing ... n worthless attitude wont give results...... atleast the students who are exepreinced should realize the meaning and significance of ALUMINI MEET ... dat it is not just meant for dancing , partying , relish gud fud ,n watching performances....etc... but its a starting base where u can start building a network and link up all the alumini... so that every string of BIMTECH is attached to the same thread..... mangement wont do much..... they will do what they can but an instiute is known by its students not by the management...
and i have heard its d same wid the organizations...... v r going to b someone's employees in next two months...

its not a selfish motive.... but also..... u make gr8 frenships...... thru networking......

networking..... not only in business but personal social relationships.....

too much proffesional for a blog....
:)

things not to do

by the title i'm not trying to instruct ny1..its actually what i never wanted to do........i thought that books are not my cuppa tea........but i tink its not true.......books take you to another world...hey am i sreeja?? dedicating a whole blog to buks......yeah......pinching myself i feel i am the same person....so , recently i read two books......i donow what to call them......novels or just books...am lil poor about the vocab of such things...nyway....so one was a simple thin biography on Martin Luther king, which i had picked up from my cousins collection...it kept me engaged for a whole day while returning from kerala this summer...in june......it gave me some meaning.....atleast i can utter an extempore on the elite personality i read about......it was a good experience..........or may be i'm not in a habit now to do nothing....sleep has also lest me smwre.......
day before i had an off and had many things to study, but got an off........u knw........big thing here at BIMTECH.......thought of enjoying it to the fullest and it was really a wonderful day for me.........i spend time with myself.........i read some novel called ' company of women' by Mr. khuhwant singh........ooooooooooooooooooo............nothing much to say......i cant trust a man if every man i like the main character of the story....lot to learn about the cultureless culture of elite nations.......
this was the same and even more disgusted feeling which i experienced after reading ' eleven minutes' by paulo coelho........
am not an anti- sexist.......but...........sex is just another need........not everything.......its just a part of human nature........but unnecessary description in things like books is smthn which i debatable, as far as my view is concerened, it should be mentioned only if the story needs but the whole story being based on a single need is bull shit........imagine a whole novel based on food food and just food........or water water and only water....
or air........
v r just surving in this earth with some basic elements needed for our survival....... y not v luk othr means......n not just crawl on the basic needs...... by this century v hud b grown up humans.........

enjoying the tranquility...

hey ya.....everything is so calm like a sea which has just finished its chores wen the sun sets or like the low tides.....muving bak to the river for rest as twilight nears......oh....am i being too much philosophical at times my mind wanders haywire.......actually may b i'm lazy to do other more imoptant activities of my daily routine ...like assignments , studying and as a finance major student i shud b lost in world where i am supposed to play with mates like derivatives , banking , corporate finance, forex......huh.......luk am tired even their names make me frustrated, every day after the sun sets, imean after tea i come to my rum n decide that ......today i'm definitely gonna study.......but yeah......never happens......i sleep as if am a princess and evrything will b automatically done for me........luk i'm again doing the things i like just surfing useless stuff on net.....but not useless 4 me at times...n writing my blog.......

so by tranquility , i mean that... i feel as if i am in a bubble where i hv all comforts except the study thing and may be i don wanna get out of the bubble........the bubble is where am happy and njoying myself and where my parents r also happy n all my dear ones........bt life is mch more ya.....
my bubble is weakening n about to blast........smtimes it is painful bt i hv to get out in world na.......am nw 21 year old young lady.....

all my dear ones have adjusted to their lives.......i tink i wz still waiting for them to finish........i realized suddenly that am still in the bubble .......all r calling me to be a part of this cruel world........bt it seemed to b cruel......bt i sill beleive there is a minute dot in this world where i'll find my world .....may b i hv got bt i'm not yet realizing the fact.......

so i'll go on..........

hu am i??

sreeja s nair .... as am known to d ppl hu knw me......n wot i appear to them is a quite gal lost in her own thoughts but its not so i'm living in the same world as evryone is living in .....but i think most of the time i do is observing other people......may be that's why i never made many frenz.....in life.......smtimes i regret but then think wud i be evr able to adjust wid thm........bt as i grown older......i gained a treasure n now dont be surprised....they are my frenz whom i met during my grads but i never knew that they wre so close to me.....
my fren nayana alvz tld me dat i got d rite attitude towards d people......n i wz confident abt myself........she cheered me up.....although intelectually i can never stand with her........bt she told me that evryone has their own "bulls n bears" as v finance people call it. i really treaur her in my life and miss her presence smtimes....n wen she told me that she had the same intense feelings then i came to know what actually is frenship ........ n i realized.......smthing wich still am nt clear abt........yeah am a lil mysterious..........this smthing will b cleared in my following blogs........for the time being this is enuf.........