go go go

hours are passed
days just go..
and everything seems out of control....
want to stop and relax but evrything seems out of reach...
its going to be end of this year too...
and things changed in flash..
like a 3 hour bollywood movie... didn feel time was more than that...
realized a break is the right thing this moment..
and i got it........

Bus no. 534...

one more story... in a week... this is one local bus no. which has become associated to me in the past one week... i experimented different buses on the roads of our own "dilli ki sadkein" but wen i talk abt this bus i.e. 534.... its rare i get a DTC.. b its more fun in the blueline... although local guys may b eve teasing n trying to tuch u.... bt its more fun wen u kick thm.... n listen to the local hindi songs... mostly radio mirchi...the odr thing wich is so near to me.... or sharukh special.... aaaaahh!!! its aweful if u r tired of office work n jst wanna get home....... bt the second day i felt... wats harm in tht if i njoy wat was happening around........ the bus n the natural way v swing wen v don get seat ...... in the bus.........
bt truly... u mst try once in ur life time........ the ride of delhi's local buses..... its fun man... thre's no fun in comfort....... bt wen v get tht once in a while its heaven... i get it in d same day... as morning.... i get a chartered bus...... wich is full of serious n tense office going people travelling daily from east delhi to south delhi.........
saadi dilli gr8 hai..........!!!! n saaadddii dilli ke log usse bhi gr8.......!!!!

aftr the morning cacophony... its a peace of mind... n soul n i am able to write n find time for this... blogging... its noon one.... cookers in the kitchen wich wre successful in waking me up in the morning are finally in peace wen they found me awake... n my mum also... its a gud trick of mothers... nyway... the best thing abt this is... smthn is really gr8 at lunch.... yummyy!!! thts the feeling being at home on sundays........ life's a UBAD - GHAAABAD RAASTA .... as smtimes its fun smtimes its sad n smtimes its peace....... it feels nice tht i njoy evry part of it...... n to the fullest.....
many changes r still awaiting... n am really excited about the future.... let it be hush hush .... n more hushes ....... i mean let it b a surprise...

and i joined the routine.....

getting up in the morning
waving my hands here n dre on the table near my bed searching for my specs... n then the first thing in my routine is done.... yes i got it... MY specs..
nw.... switching on the tape recorder... the same cassette... chants of gayatri matra... n wondering.. its seven already... oh god !!! nw i hv to rush.... evn my sister is ready for school.... milk has also cm.. its only me hu is late FOR OFFICE...... n finally i arrived at my point....
its been a week today since i fetched my customary routine... i joined latelty last monday...
i'm happy... adjusting to the new life wasnt tht tuff ... as far as i feel till now... may b i got better thn wt i expected... actually i didn expect n didn thought abt it especially aftr learing a lesson from pat two years i spent in a B-school...still feel i was really out of place...
bt may b today i got m place... n i want to be thr... i have peace of mind n i feel myself... aftr a long long time..
my dearies r also hapy... wich is nodr thing wich keeps me happy,... n more ovr am bak home n started staying wid thm.... n joined the routine wid my family........
so wen i cm out of office in the evening... the most b'ful feeling is i am goin home...... yes thats IT!!!!!!!

just wanna get liberated

i just smtimes thought how can people jst change to the extent to their opposites.... bt wen i observed my self , i changed , my attitude changed , my thinking changed... either i am getting too selfish or i want eveyrhtn ..... n may b i am troubling odrs.... bt 4 wot.... y do i beleive tht odrs shud get the point on their own... i hv lost my patience n i hv nothing left.. feell empty n hollow 4m inside.... its nt tht i'm goin thru tuff times or smthn its jst tht,... i hv time to think so mch.... i should nt think either.... or if i don think i wont b able to solve myself....... i hv hell lotta confusions... bt deep inside... i don wanna trouble ny one nt evn me... n thts it... i may hv started luving myself more... its nt me... people around me r lik tht.... is tht influencing me... ??
i want to get liberated of all attachments lik luv or realtion.... bt i'm one of them... bt smtimes it beats hard me on ground... n am lost......

finally got time...

so after a long long time , I'm writing my blog.. sitting at a damp cyber cafe... wid little light i remember my BIMTECH days when NET was never a big deal to access ... everything just was just next to my fingers in MY room on MY table in My flat... may b i miss smtimes... although i never thought i would...
yes today i'm so freee.... i feel no need to look at my diary neither checking my blog... nor updating it... coz i'm freed.. of all such worries... i got what i wanted ... a simple job... evry1 s happy wid me n me 2 cz odr r happy too... kindaa happy...
so nw start of a new life... waiting for my joining.. before that a quite long break to kerala is waiting for me...... am very excited.....!!! so will cya soon...

direct dil se....

dont remebr wre i heard this title from but i really liked it...bold n clear... can say sm aspects i really luk for in a person after me...
its our habit as humans to discuss among oursleves the personalities of persons surrounding us... for gals usually the term is coined as gossip.. although its just a word... but guys also do the same....... so no discrimination here...
its a human tendency to do so.. so i feel there's nothing wrong in doing so... u learn things smtimes u even look inside u... but its not always positive........ till u arent harming other person's image in front of others... n mostly peoeple do dat... evn gud ones r not behind tht...
n some people r often confused about themselves.. i think rare r sure of themselves... sm think abt it n sm accept themselves the way they r...... not ready to change at all........ for thm they hide selfishness in shade of ego.......
u can say......... its tuff to judge a person........ n get tied 4 whole life....... its a treasure hunt..... which is neverending....... or u realize the treasure wz alvz wid u...... at a very weak n no stage f life.......
so better to start knowing urself....... widout harming odrs......
:)